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I need you but you’re too close – I can’t breathe

Bs – Healthy Source ( #2)

REMINDER: See ACRONYM page for abbrev.

1. Normal Development – Stable Core (previous 2 posts)

2. ACoAs
Unfortunately, ACoAs did not originally have that all-important stable core to rely on growing up & so were not able to form our own, because of:
• being overstimulated by chaos, emotional volatility & conflict
• being over-controlled, expected to be perfect, judged harshly
• not having role models for self-esteem & appropriate Bs
• not being loved & supported unconditionally

a. Wounded Adults
• Un-recovered PARENTS are symbiotically enmeshed with their children, to cover their own FoA – ie. both the adults & the kids have similar immature mental drama & temperamental intensity, so they overlap each other, which is emotionally abandoning & terrifying for the children

• These parents are coming from their WIC* ego state, so have:
— weak or no Adult & missing Loving Parent aspects
— weak or rigid boundaries, overlapping child’s feelings, as if the child were an extension of themselves
— a narrow range of emotions available, w/ few nuances
— the focus on their addictions, bad relationships, financial worries, depression, mental illness, relatives, sickness ….
— often changed the rules arbitrarily or made them unreachable, so no matter how hard we tried to obey, it was inevitably going to be wrong – & then got attacked & punished! We could ‘never win’.

✶ This kept us off-balance so we wouldn’t become independent (& leave them), which requires being sure of oneself

Al-Anon visual: the alcoholic has their arms around the bottle & the co-dependent has their arms around the alcoholic!  — The children are just pawns to be used & burdens to be neglected, in Games Alcoholics Play’

b. Limiting our Emotionsnegate Es
• In this atmosphere, one or both parents limit or repress the type of emotional responses allowed the children, who are expected to act like adults, both mentally & emotionally, long before maturation. ACoAs were blamed for not behaving ‘right’,  even thought we were not experienced yet in social etiquette or subtleties, didn’t have enough motor co-ordination, weren’t old enough to actually act a certain way….

EXP: Beth is a pretty little girl who has grown up in church. On this occasion her mother is at the dais addressing a group of ladies.  Beth has been left all alone in the front pew & expected to sit for 2 hours like a perfectly groomed doll. But she’s s normal 5-year-old – bored, lonely & fidgeting. Her mother is annoyed at her child’s ‘misbehavior’ which will affect what the women will think of her as parent & leader.
She gives Beth ‘the look‘, who immediately freezes – she’s terrified, knowing the dire consequences of displeasing, but quick obedience saves her this time. For years afterward her mother proudly likes to tell how the group complemented her, after the meeting, on having such a well-behaved child – without the mother or any of them having a clue about the intense fear that generated it!

• We learned very early that our emotions & behavior had global impact – they effected the ‘gods’ badly. Our parents let us know in various ways that we harmed them just by being ourselves (kids)
EXP: A mother repeatedly remarked to daughter – “You’ll be the death of me yet!”

• Many ACoAs experienced being emotionally blackmailed being controlled using fear, obligation or guiltOur parents’ narcissism & lack of boundaries made it easy for them to:
— treat us the same way they had been – the ‘kick the dog syndrome’, ie. passing on their rage at thblackmaileir parents neglect & abuse
— project their self-hate onto us – they couldn’t face that they were considered ‘bad’ children’ so they made us bad instead – to preserve their fragile self-image
BOOK: “Emotional Blackmail” & “Toxic Parents“~ Susan Forward

EXP:  “If you loved me…. I made that just for you…. If you don’t do your chores, dad will get really mad at me….’  A partner may make you take responsibility for failing to get ahead in a career…. some couples blame each other for being held back financially, for being overweight, for not having friends….

NEXT: ACoAs & Bs (Part 2)


One thought on “BOUNDARIES & ACoAs (Part 1)

  1. I’ve done this stuff to my children. How I loved to talk about how well behaved all 6 were when we went out to eat and people would comment on how well behaved they were. I feel so ashamed to think that they were afraid but it’s probably true.
    I’m going to share this website with my children. We had 6 in 7 years. The oldest is 32 and the youngest 25 today. My eyes are being opened wider each day. I have 11 grandchildren. it’s not too late. Healing has begun. Thank you for this resource.


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