ACoAs: PATTERNS of Mistrust (Part 2)


mistrust 

I’LL NEVER GET WHAT I WANT
so I might as well end it

PREVIOUS: Patterns of Mistrust (Part 1)

See ACRONYM page for abbrev.


PATTERNS (cont)

OVER-TRUSTING (recent post)
Everyone tells us about themselves, subtly or not, yet we ignore all the unhealthy things we hear & experience in people we ‘need’, staying too long at the party & getting trampled. Then wonder why we can’t trust!

MIND-READING
We’re always trying to figure out:
— WHY they did or didn’t do something (“Why hasn’t he called me back?”, “Why did thmindreadingey leave?”…) because we think that if we can figure it out, we can fix ourselves so they won’t leave us, or so they’ll come back

— WHAT they are thinking in general, & specifically about us, so we know where we stand, what they want from us, how we should behave ……. Our co-dependence makes us assume that if they like us we‘re allowed to live, but if they disapprove or are angry at us we should be dead! & this happens over & over with each person, so we’re like emotional yo-yos

BACK-DOOR
At the same time we build-in a defense strategy in relationships to manage our FoA by automatically looking for flaws in others, which we can use as an excuse to escape the minute we feel disappointed back door(they failed our test) – by not reading our mind, not rescuing us, not symbiosing with us…. It’s our ‘fear of commitment’, so we never quite have both feet firmly in the relationship, BUT then complain that we can’t connect / don’t feel close / aren’t valued….

• An extreme version of this is when we really do want to get out of a relationship but don’t have the right or the courage to do it directly — we create drama (fights, an affair, constantly pressuring them….), pushing the other person away in order to force them into doing the leaving. BUT then we feel abandoned, unloved – & angry!

TESTING
On the one hand we have created a set of rules for others to follow (no matter what kind of relationship), often unconsciously AND which we don’t tell the other person about.  Our rules:
— are the good ways we wish we could be treated, but are not allowed to ask for directly or do for ourselves
— represent our demand that others be the good parents we didn’t have
— are the measuring stick we use so we can know what to expect – so we won’t be cotestingnned & to not feel so vulnerable

• THEN we wait to see how many rules they fulfill or which ones they violate – & when they fail the test we can feel justified in our anger & disenchantment with them – & all of humanity!

The THIRD DEGREE
On the other hand, we may try to be safe by asking endless questions, probing to see what’s really going on, to see if the situation is safe, what do they like, want, need…..
NOTE: Information about who people are is legitimate & necessary – but here we’re talking about frantic, incessant interrogation because of not trusting or believing in our perceptions, or letting things unfold slowly

PREEMPTIVE STRIKES
a. Since we assume we will be abandoned sooner or later —
— we can’t wait to tell others about how messed up we arepreempt love
— in general act obnoxious & immature
— never respond to anything seriously, using ‘clever’ phrases
— stay very impersonal – only talking from the head, only about actions
— insult others, have a hostile attitude most of the time, answer civil or ‘innocent’ questions with ridiculous or angry retorts
EXP: A young woman reacted harshly when a new boyfriend asked if she was going to make him breakfast. She spit out “I wouldn’t be caught dead cooking!”
— One girl was asked by another if she liked her dress. The first answered:  “I wouldn’t wear it, but it’s ok on you”

b. Verbally attack or threaten physical harm ahead of assumed danger, especially if someone has inadvertently pushed one of our old buttons, like accusing us wrongly or acting needy
EXP: Another young woman threatened each new lover with bodily harm on the first date if he ever did or said anything to scare her

NEXT: Healthy Trusting (Part 1)

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One thought on “ACoAs: PATTERNS of Mistrust (Part 2)

  1. Both Mark (my husband) and I subscribe to your blog. It feels like you’re latest emails (over the past week) have been spot on for him. It’s like you know exactly what’s going on for him right now!
    I am trying to persuade him (trying not a word I like to use) to come and look properly at your blogs and interact, but so far there is mistrust and resistance 😉
    “How can anyone be interested in what I have to say” !!!
    Thank you Donna….keep up the good work 😉

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