I HAVE TO DO IT ALL MYSELF
since no one else cares!
POST: Cognitive Distortions (CDs)
See ACRONYM page for abbrev.
All ACoAs grow up with a variety of cognitive distortions (CDs), which now keep us confused & even somewhat paralyzed. Instead of seeing thru rose-colored glasses, CDs are our negative filters/ lenses used to view our sense of self & our abilities, mirroring past painful events & too many losses.
The Al-Anon Opening says: “….. Our thinking becomes distorted by trying to force solutions, & we become irritable & unreasonable without knowing it.”
One of these CDs is the:
“Illusion of Control” fallacy = the mistaken belief that you can change things you really can’t (opposite of Step 1). It comes in 2 forms, & sadly, most unrecovered ACoAs have both:
• Being externally controlled, we feel like helpless victims of fate, & so tend to blame others for our mistakes & failures, such as the boss causing our poor work performance.
EXP: “I can’t help it if the quality of the work isn’t my best. I was under so much pressure to get it done fast, & my boss demanded I work overtime on it.”
• The internally controlled part of the fallacy has us blaming ourselves for events that are truly out of our control. We assume responsibility for the pain or happiness of everyone around us (instead of ourselves!) & then for fixing it.
EXP: “Why are you upset? Was it something I said? What can I do?”
FROM the up-coming series of posts on Angry-Nice people
ACoAs’ reverse logic 🙃 gets the Serenity Prayer backwards:
❤︎ Instead of: “God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can & the wisdom to know the difference”,
☁︎ We compulsive act on the mantra:
“I grant myself the ability to do the impossible,
the determination to not change the things I can,
& the denial to not notice the distortion!”
For many of us it’s unconscious & automatic, but our version is arrogant & self-destructive.
So it’s important to become fully aware of this pervasive pattern if we’re serious about our Recovery.
Only then do we have the option to decide which of the 2 versions we want to live by.
Correction • Don’t under-estimate the degree of control you do have over your own actions. You’re no longer a perpetual victim, as in childhood, no longer helpless or powerless. Check out the many alternatives available to you & take responsibility for your action.
• Don’t over-estimate your responsibility for the happiness or pain of others. Learn how much power & influence you really do have or don’t have over yourself & others.
NEXT: Statements that misrepresent (#1)